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i'm sorry

Posted by acheney - December 6th, 2021


i can't take keeping this bottled up anymore


i'm still alive and well. i faked my suicide


i did it because i was feeling really crappy that monday night and thought that saying i killed myself online would make me feel better. i can't say whether it did or not, but i immediately felt incredibly guilty about it. however, i was afraid of going back at that moment because i thought that i would come off as seeking attention. i suppose i still do now


out of all of this, i learned that suicide is a terrible, terrible, selfish thing to do. i know that there are many people who appreciate and care about me, and leaving them forever only puts a unfixable hole in their hearts


i don't know whether i should delete the original post. i probably should. if i do, and you want to view it, you can probably find it on the wayback machine


i'm so so sorry, and i hope i can be forgiven. i probably can't


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We all have done dumb things at some point of our lives.It’s good to see that you have learnt from your mistake so the next step for you is to move on and never repeat it again.

@Inciniumz2 If you need someone to talk to,I’ll be happy to lend a listening ear.

@Inciniumz2 Oops,I meant him but I’ll be happy to do the same for you,if you like.

@Inciniumz2 Okay then.Well,if you need anything,please feel free to message anytime!

@Inciniumz2 Your welcome.

Sorry for your not loss. I almost believed you then because you hadn't posted in a while.
FAKE YOUR DEATH 101: Don't title your memorial post as '...' That's a DEAD giveaway.

I'll be honest : I kind of expected this outcome (though I didn't share it with others in order to be respectful in the case it really did happen).
I hope you'll get better in the future, don't give up !

I have also felt depressed. Felt destroyed. Felt like I can't do anything in life. Yet I didn't want my audience to think I killed myself. This is no excuse. There were people at that time litterly freaking out thinking you were dead... There is no excuse for that. NONE. I am trying to not get angry about this but dude. Saying you killed yourself and just leaving that message for a whole 2 fucking weeks. You know I heard about this event happening I was so fucking shocked. I couldn't believe it. Now you're here trying to say that you are just feeling crappy and just make us feel fucking terrible. The good thing is that at least you realized what you did was genuinely horrible and at least apologized. But that doesn't excuse it. Doesn't at all. Shit like this makes me so relieved and yet so furious because I am happy you are not dead. I am so fucking happy. But so mad. So fucking frustrated. Just please if you ever feel like complete shit... Talk to us. Vent. You are free to. We know how you feel. Dont lie to us that you committed literal suicide

The internet has a short attention span. They'll forgive and forget about this whole situation in two weeks.

I am happy you are fine. I am not happy you did this. :(

@Ketyri i was going to say the same

glad to see you are okay in the end! I saw somewhere that you are taking therapy and that's great! Keep it up man, there's always someone who cares about you :)

It made me very depressed, but I forgive you completely.

I'll be completely honest...I legit cried at your supposed death. I'll try to forgive you since you're probably seeking help at the moment, but I won't forget it.

I screamed at my roommate because I was sad that you were supposedly gone. So, forgiveness will be a long process for now. It could take 2 weeks, it could take 2 months, I don't know. I am glad that you're okay. Really. But again, forgiveness in this case will be a process.

you couldn't control yourself. it's fine.

I honestly have some empathy for you because, in my past life, I have reached points when I wanted to take drastic measures, and yes, when I was younger, less healthy, and didn't know better, there were a few points when I did take drastic measures.

I can't be mad at you because you're being open and honest, and I respect that. If you were being rude like it's a joke, then yes, I would be angry.

It's good to see you again, Aden!

Ah, that's okay. I've had those times where just don't know what's happening to you and you just feel full, full of helplessness and confusion. You can take forgiveness from me. I'm really just happy to know you're alive. I hope that therapy helps. I went as a young child. My parents thought I was crazy. Say what, maybe I am but I'm glad you're getting help. Good luck and don't give up.

I'm happy to see you again, I don't blame you for what you did. We all do stupid stuff in the heat of the moment. I wouldn't have done better if in your shoes.

:D

If you ever need anyone to talk to, just send me a PM every once and a while. It hurts when we lose a Newgrounder, and I'm just glad you're okay.

Just don't do this again bro. I was legit hurt that we lost you.